Dear Baby,
It makes my heart hurt so much that you won't even know your Grandma Becky while you're here on Earth, but I hope I can do my very best to help you know how great of a person she was and how important she is to me.
Grandma Becky was kind and always tried to take care of others. She was such an example to me of service and was always trying to help those around her with anything they needed. She was so good at taking meals to people, chatting with them when they were sad, and checking in on them when they were needing some extra love.
Grandma Becky was always up for an adventure! She would go on any crazy outing we invited her even if it was at the last minute. She never wanted to miss a moment of fun or time spent with her family. We went camping, on a cruise, to Disneyland, to St. George, to see the solar eclipse, she visited us when we lived in Oregon (two times!), and so many other adventures!
She loved going on a trip or adventure, but it didn't have to be anything too crazy or extravagant for her to have a good time. Because of her life circumstances and living by herself, we spent a lot of time with Grandma Becky, which will always be so special to me. She would come over for dinner at least a few times every month, usually when I had accidentally made too much for dinner and we needed a little help to eat it all. She loved spending time with Ari and Charlie and watching them while Dad and I went on a date or just inviting them over on a Summer day to play in the pool and have treats. We would usually go to the pool in the summer time once every week or two, have lunch in the park, go to the dam, go for walks with Zoey, or just hang out while Ari and Charlie played outside. She loved having ice cream or any treat. She loved going to Edith's and out to eat in general. It's all of these little things that I will miss the very most.
I'm so very sad that you won't know Grandma Becky here, but I want you to know how special I know you are to her. Although you may not physically know her, I hope you will know that she will always be there for you when you need help and loves you so much and wants the very best for you.
Love,
Mom
Sunday, February 23, 2020
February 23, 2020
Dear Baby,
It's hard to believe I'm actually writing this. I created this blog name about 6 years ago when I was pregnant with your sister Ari and knew that someday you'd join our family, and I'm so excited to finally say you'll be joining us later this year.
I'm much later to write this first post in my pregnancy than I was with your siblings, but probably for a few different reasons - it's been a crazy year, I've been sick, you're the third kid (I guess that's something you'll just have to get used to).
Let me start from the beginning. Most of this information is for you to have someday, but some of it's for my memories, too.
It was right before Christmas that I knew I'd be finding out if I was pregnant or not, and if I was, I was hoping to surprise Dad because I'd never been able to do it before. Because of some different circumstances, I was by myself in Idaho Falls with Grandma Becky at the hospital. I took an early pregnancy test and either it was too early or it didn't get saturated enough, but for some reason it said I wasn't pregnant. Although I was a little disappointed, I was mostly okay with it because of all of the craziness that was happening then and that I knew would be happening later on.
The rest of the week happened, we were still in Idaho Falls, and my period still hadn't started. We got home on a Friday night and Dad kept asking me if I thought I was pregnant (I hadn't told him about the earlier test), and I kept telling him no because I thought I wasn't. But I kept wondering if maybe I was since the next day I would be three days late. I was going to wait a few more days to see if it happened, but I knew if I didn't take a test it would drive me crazy.
So Saturday morning I woke up early before Dad and went into the bathroom to take a test. And it said YES!!! I was so, so surprised. The whole point of taking the earlier test was to surprise Dad, but I was so shocked I couldn't help but wake him up right then and show him the test. It was pretty crazy. And I was so happy!
This pregnancy has been quite a bit different. At the beginning I wasn't nearly as sick and it took a while longer than with the other two for it to start. Which I was very grateful for. I'm still convinced you knew everything that was going on at the moment and held off as long as you possibly could, and I love you so much for that.
Another reason I've been putting off writing this is from all of the feelings that will probably come. It's really sad for me to write that about a week after I found out about you my mom, Grandma Becky to you, passed away. I'm so grateful for the time you're spending with her now, but it's so hard for me to know that she won't be here when you're born and you won't know her while you're here. It's been interesting, sad, happy to see how life progresses and when one life ends another begins. I miss her so much, but I'm so grateful I'll have you and the rest of our family.
I'm now 12 weeks pregnant (your official due date is September 4), pretty sick almost every day, all day, but I still feel like it's been different than with my other two pregnancies. I feel pretty nauseous all of the time, but have only thrown up a few times. I've found that sometimes Gatorade helps, so I go through a lot of that. I haven't had a lot of cravings except that when something sounds good I definitely take advantage of eating it and a lot of it because I don't know when that feeling will come again.
You have two older siblings, Ari and Charlie, and I hope they will be your best friends. Ari is so incredibly excited for you to join our family. She loves learning how you're growing and she prays for you every day. She would really, really like a girl baby, but if you're a boy she said she'd be okay with that, too. Charlie has absolutely no idea what's going. He talks about you, but I don't think he really knows what a baby in my tummy means. He is convinced he has a baby in his tummy too that sometimes talks to him and loves to eat bananas, fruit snacks, and gold fish crackers (conveniently his favorite foods, too). Ari wants to name you Baby Ashley and Charlie wants to name you Jojo, which is also the name of his baby.
I'm so grateful for you, Baby, and I can't wait for you to join our family!
Love,
Mom
It's hard to believe I'm actually writing this. I created this blog name about 6 years ago when I was pregnant with your sister Ari and knew that someday you'd join our family, and I'm so excited to finally say you'll be joining us later this year.
I'm much later to write this first post in my pregnancy than I was with your siblings, but probably for a few different reasons - it's been a crazy year, I've been sick, you're the third kid (I guess that's something you'll just have to get used to).
Let me start from the beginning. Most of this information is for you to have someday, but some of it's for my memories, too.
It was right before Christmas that I knew I'd be finding out if I was pregnant or not, and if I was, I was hoping to surprise Dad because I'd never been able to do it before. Because of some different circumstances, I was by myself in Idaho Falls with Grandma Becky at the hospital. I took an early pregnancy test and either it was too early or it didn't get saturated enough, but for some reason it said I wasn't pregnant. Although I was a little disappointed, I was mostly okay with it because of all of the craziness that was happening then and that I knew would be happening later on.
The rest of the week happened, we were still in Idaho Falls, and my period still hadn't started. We got home on a Friday night and Dad kept asking me if I thought I was pregnant (I hadn't told him about the earlier test), and I kept telling him no because I thought I wasn't. But I kept wondering if maybe I was since the next day I would be three days late. I was going to wait a few more days to see if it happened, but I knew if I didn't take a test it would drive me crazy.
So Saturday morning I woke up early before Dad and went into the bathroom to take a test. And it said YES!!! I was so, so surprised. The whole point of taking the earlier test was to surprise Dad, but I was so shocked I couldn't help but wake him up right then and show him the test. It was pretty crazy. And I was so happy!
This pregnancy has been quite a bit different. At the beginning I wasn't nearly as sick and it took a while longer than with the other two for it to start. Which I was very grateful for. I'm still convinced you knew everything that was going on at the moment and held off as long as you possibly could, and I love you so much for that.
Another reason I've been putting off writing this is from all of the feelings that will probably come. It's really sad for me to write that about a week after I found out about you my mom, Grandma Becky to you, passed away. I'm so grateful for the time you're spending with her now, but it's so hard for me to know that she won't be here when you're born and you won't know her while you're here. It's been interesting, sad, happy to see how life progresses and when one life ends another begins. I miss her so much, but I'm so grateful I'll have you and the rest of our family.
I'm now 12 weeks pregnant (your official due date is September 4), pretty sick almost every day, all day, but I still feel like it's been different than with my other two pregnancies. I feel pretty nauseous all of the time, but have only thrown up a few times. I've found that sometimes Gatorade helps, so I go through a lot of that. I haven't had a lot of cravings except that when something sounds good I definitely take advantage of eating it and a lot of it because I don't know when that feeling will come again.
You have two older siblings, Ari and Charlie, and I hope they will be your best friends. Ari is so incredibly excited for you to join our family. She loves learning how you're growing and she prays for you every day. She would really, really like a girl baby, but if you're a boy she said she'd be okay with that, too. Charlie has absolutely no idea what's going. He talks about you, but I don't think he really knows what a baby in my tummy means. He is convinced he has a baby in his tummy too that sometimes talks to him and loves to eat bananas, fruit snacks, and gold fish crackers (conveniently his favorite foods, too). Ari wants to name you Baby Ashley and Charlie wants to name you Jojo, which is also the name of his baby.
I'm so grateful for you, Baby, and I can't wait for you to join our family!
Love,
Mom
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